Insomnia

Life has been crazy lately. I left my job and moved back home. It’s a long story, but it’s 100% what God wanted me to do.

The last few weeks were filled with tearful good byes, last minute work meetings, and packing. Lots of packing.

Now that I’m back home, in my parent’s home (YIKES!). I’ve been sorting through all my crap (yes, I really mean crap, I have a TON of stuff. but do I really need it all??)

I’ve been catching up on sleep– I slept from 10pm until 11am just about every day since getting home until Saturday.

And that all that lovely, glorious, much appreciated, though highly unneeded sleep has caused on great and awesome thing now:

INSOMNIA

I cannot sleep.

It all began Saturday night.

I began getting tired at 10 and went to go to bed.

And then 11 came by and I was still up. My brain would not stop.

So I turned on some old school reruns and decided to wait until I was tired again.

And 12 o’clock came.

And I was still awake. So I grabbed my computer and began filling out some applications and responding to emails. And I started getting tired.

And 1 came around, but still sleep teased me.

2 o’clock and I finally decided I’d lay there still all night if that was all the rest I’d get.

It was probably 3 before I finally passed out.

And I slept.

Until 12pm.

It was apparently such glorious sleep that my alarm could not wake me. (So radio church it was…and online sermons, I was feeling guilty…)

Sunday night about 11 I decided to try to go to bed. But still I could not sleep.

And it’s been late night after late night ever since.  I’ve finally started waking up around 8 or 9 no matter what time I finally pass out so here’s hoping that helps re-correct things.

It got me thinking how our bodies were created to live in this rhythm of rest and go rest and go. But this rest doesn’t just apply to sleep. It also applies to our faith. In particular to our faith when we intend to let God rule our lives, to live our lives in service to Him.

At school we always talked about it as this glass. We go to church, Bible study, and pray to fill up that glass. And as we serve, teach, and witness to others, that glass gets emptier and emptier. We need to continually refill our glass so that we can fill others.

I always notice when I’m out of that rhythm. I am more agitated  less at peace, and I’m pretty sure it’s got something to do with so much and so little sleep I’ve gotten.

We are meant to live our lives in a rhythm. Are you living yours in a rhythm? Or are you in a spiritual Insomnia season?

For in six days the LORD made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy. Exodus 20:11