Patterns…

I’m still here…

I’m sorry I went missing…

Life got crazy for a while…But thats a post for another day…

I have so many things I want to blog about since my last post.

Even before I sit down to blog I’m writing it in my head, how it should start, what I will say.

For every blog idea I had, I had this “I’m sorry for my lack of blogging lately” or something similar to start it…and it got me thinking…

I started a twitter a while back, I was pretty good at keeping up with it, and then I slacked. I got distracted by life and I didn’t tweet for a while.

I started a blog a LONG time ago (they called it Xanga, remember that?), it was the cool thing to do with all my friends. We’d all get on and talk about how we woke up, went to eat, and ran to class and then napped, etc. It was like this public journal of how we spent our day. And then life happened and we’d go days, weeks, months without blogging.

I started sinning a long long long while back. I’d catch myself and realize my mistake, ask for forgiveness, seek to do the right thing. And I’d do okay for a while, I wouldn’t lie to mom and dad, or I wouldn’t hit my brother, or I’d tell mom where I was going and actually come home when I was supposed to. And then life happened, and I got distracted….

See where I’m going with this?

Every day, every hour, we all sin. We’re all human, don’t lie: you do it, too.

We go to church on Sunday and we repent, we tell God, “Hey, I’m sorry, I messed up.” We make this mental note to not do that again, the guilt just wasn’t worth it. And we try our hardest to be better at not doing that. And life happens, and we get distracted…

But it’s okay.

Because we’re human.

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, and in sin did my mother conceive me. Psalm 51:5

We all do it.

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God Romans 3:23

 

And God forgives.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

 

Everytime.

As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. Psalm 103:12

 

It’s why He came after all.

For God so loved the world, that He sent His one and only son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16

 

And it’s pretty great.

To remember that I’m forgiven.

By the one who came to save me.

And you.

To remember that my salvation does not hinge on my perfection.

But my belief.

And my new creation in Christ.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 2 Corinthians 5:17

 

31 days: day 16 Heart and Home link up

Community.

Today my heart is heavy for community.

Not really “heavy” in a difficult way, but in a way that community is on my heart. It’s on my heart as I strive to build a community for myself, for my students, and as I learn how community can have such an effect on hearts.

Currently I struggle to feel like I have a community. Sure there is a natural community in which I live and work, but having an honest, open, community where I feel like I can truly be me is something I struggle to find. I have a small community, a few select people who I can be honest with- at all costs. A few people who are far away with whom I have a “virtual” or “long-distance” community. But I don’t always get to be a part of those communities on a daily basis.

And it shows.

My heart is heavy, like hard heavy, on the days that I am not able to connect in community. I drag all day long. I find myself more tired at the end of the day, even if I really did little.

But having the chance to partake in my community is such a blessing! Even a quick phone call to a long-distance friend, or a quick lunch with a friend in town is such an uplifting thing!

We are called to be in community! Jesus didn’t hang out by himself, he went to the people. He surrounded himself with his disciples, with his followers.

Now I don’t think we should go out and find people who will “follow us” but it’s clear that community is important.

Jesus tells us that his greatest command is to love. And while in America we are GREAT at loving ourselves, we are supposed to love one another. We are supposed to carry one another’s burdens. We need one another, we are all different parts in this Body of Christ.

How do you create community for yourself? How do you find a community in a season of life where having an honest community is difficult?

These are the questions I ask myself lately. How would you respond?